Are you new here? Let me tell you a bit about me.

After a couple of false starts in my career and love life, I hung out my shingle as a ghostwriter and later married a lovely man who is fun and intelligent and seems delighted by my desire to run the world. We signed on the dotted line in a small ceremony in northern Michigan with the long summer sun setting around us. We thought the roaring creek running beside the veranda of the quaint little Inn was a sign of sweeping success for our new businesses and our new pact as partners.

44 days in as newlyweds and we found ourselves sitting in the doctor’s office talking about liver cancer.

Through chemo and what we hope to be a life-saving surgery, my understanding of cancer and the healing power of nutrition, love, and the strength of the human spirit grew beyond what I learned in all my education and circumstances combined. There have been days when I thought I couldn’t keep doing all the things. But my clients depend on me, my husband depends on me, my two dogs depend on me. And above all else, I depend on me to keep everything running – this is that “in sickness and health” thing you agree to in your vows but don’t expect to show up for a long time.

The beautiful thing about my career as a ghostwriter is that I don’t always have to show up as me. Instead, I get to pull out those wonderful ideas that my client is trying to communicate, shine them up, and send them out into the world. My job is to make my people look good, even if I look like something that just crawled out of the night of the living dead. (Can I get an amen for remote work?!)

This cancer thing provided me a new view of the world that comes from being a background structure in someone else’s battle for more of those precious days.

There are two things I now know for sure: 1) Working for myself has been the blessing of my life, without it I couldn’t be by my husband’s side through endless treatments and appointments.  And, 2) None of us know what the future holds.

Do the damn thing.

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